Baby Shower

Oh! My God!!! I am so very very happy today. One of my husband's friends came by the house with her 2 beautiful daughters Sarah and Karly and informed me that I will be having my baby shower on the 13th of February, 1:00pm at my husband's father residence. Whew!!! and they helped me with the baby's lists as well. I was actually kinda depress last night for many reasons but today my spirit is pretty high because I am so happy that they will give me a baby shower, The truth is I don't have any friends in this country and i didn't expect that I will have a baby shower. But, now, I will. This is my first time to have a baby and I was wondering how it feels to experience of having one. And, my husband also told me that his girls office mates are planning of giving me a baby shower too. Well honestly it is not about the gifts that I am up to but the experience. The experience that I can tell and share that I too had experience of having a baby shower. isn't it great? I feel so happy indeed. We are actually pretty set but still something is lacking the spirit of being a complete pregnant woman. Having a baby shower. Awesome.

Prenatal Visit

Oh! well My prenatal visit yesterday went great. My doctor is so nice so does my nurse. They are very helpful and explained everything to me all the necessary thing that they think I needed to know. Although I had been reading books but still hearing from someone who experienced and been through with the same situation already is always nice and great. It helped me a lot. For less than a month the waiting will soon be over. The nurse explained to my husband what door that he need to take when time comes. If its night or day. Just nice. hahahaha!!!

uncomfortable

Oh! My Holy..Today at 2:35pm is my Doctor's appointment. I'm sure nothing much to do in the hospital perhaps like my doctor always do, she will just spend some time asking question like if i have a contraction, measure my belly and just a few talks and that's it. Then be back home. As according to her my due date will be on the 27th of the following month if that's the case well then. Its gonna be it. 3o days or less more to do and I can't explain how it is very uncomfortable now. My back always hurts, my pelvis too, I can't just simply move the way I always do. In bed I need to move my hips so It won't hurt that bad. I always give my husband a hard time by telling him that after I gave birth we will going to make a new one again. Right after. Imagine? But I guess I am not so sure because I don't think I like this kind of feeling. Very Uncomfortable. My pregnacy is doing pretty good but there are times that I hate the uncomfortability that it brings. I don't want to go through this ever again. I guess. So far.

Baby pattern

These past days as I am in my last stage of pregnancy and in God's will in about more or less 34 more days I will be about to give birth to my very first child, I noticed that the baby in my womb has a pattern. God! if all pregnant women experience the same way I do it just amazing how the babies move, isn't it? But my baby loves to move at night, I guess like me he is nocturnal at day he behave nicely but at night time whenever I am laying down in bed Oh! my Holy I can't explain how he moves I feel happy thought but at the same time i can't sleep at all. My sleep pattern now is that I am completely awake at night and sleep the whole day. however I am enjoying it and been trying to because I know I will definitely miss this stage of my life where I know there is a little tiny innocent creature inside my womb.

34 Days 2go

Oh! My God if my Doctor is accurate enough with regards to my due date, it only 34 more days to go for a new life. A life that needs to be nurtured and shaped. Oh! my...Oh! my..I can't hardly believe that I am conceiving a baby inside my tummy and in fact at first I don't want to pursue my pregnancy and I wanted to abort it. I don't want it, I don't like it. it wasn't in my dream, it wasn't in my plans, I just can't imagine myself to be pregnant and I never pictured myself of having a baby and be a prison and be like what I am now these days. but what can I do? if this is my fate? what else can I do? I am not in a osition where I could have a choice, this is my only choice and nothing else so I am facing the consequences. However, I am thankful that this pregnancy is kinda smooth and no issues and problems at all my health is ok and never been through to like many pregnant women experiences an issues that make pregnancy sucks. Oh! Holy crap...now 34 more days i will be giving life, a life that I am not even sure what his future would be. A life that has no assurance. It made me really sad. that I don't want to blah blah here in this page, How I wish I could but i prefer not to and it serves no good at all. There are so many concerns that I am so bothered about. but what can I do? everything just terribly horrible. I am hoping that things will work out fine and good. But my heart and mind is so much bothered for just about everything concerning my life itself and now I am adding a new innocent life which I think should be spared from anything. I am afraid that his life would be just sucks and aborting him would be just the best thing to do then, because I am his mother in no position to make his life better. Just made me cry out loud inside but I just simply can't.

On the other hand, I wish my baby would be healthy and i don't know what to do if he is not. everything would just turn out so pretty bad. 34 more days and it his grand welcome into this chaotic world. I want the best of everything for him, but how could I do that if I can't even give the best of everything to myself???

I am imagining how he will be look like? Will he look like me? or his father? Will he be intelligent? or dumb? Will he be healthy or not? it is just between the two choices. In spite of all the concerns and everything I am still anxious and at the same time excited for his arrival. A mother is always a mother but I don't know what would I be to him? what type of mother would be my role? I want to give the best of everything to him but I am not in a position and his father. Oh!...anyway...I am just simply absorbing everything and waiting for the 34 days to be over.

checklist

	Diapers: Whether you're going the re-usable or disposable route, you'll need plenty on hand.
	Burp cloths (fabric diapers can also double as burp cloths).
	Disposable wipes. Always have a few packets on hand -- this is not an item you want to run out of.
	Diaper rash cream
	Diaper pail: Choose one that you can operate with one hand, one that uses regular garbage bags, and has an odor control system.
	Diaper bag: Make sure it hangs well from your stroller handlebars.
	Baby monitor
	1 or 2 pacifiers, if you want to use them. Be sure to get ones labeled "newborn."
	Portable crib, commonly known as a Pack 'n Play, for when you visit the grandparents.
	Co-sleeper. It's so nice to just reach over to nurse your baby at night. But you can easily substitute the portable crib if it's easier.
	6 bottles, including nipples: Make sure you buy nipples for newborns.
	Bottle brush
	Breast pump: Go for the fancy automatic double pump if you're going back to work.
	Breastfeeding pillow
	Nursing pads
	Lanolin lotion for sore nipples
	Breast milk freezer bags or storage cups
	Thermometer. The rectal kind. Don't be freaked out -- once you do it, it's a piece of cake.
	Nasal bulb syringe for clearing stuffy noses
	Baby nail clipper
	Alcohol swabs and bandages
	Infant bath tub or seat with a newborn "sling"
	Baby shampoo and cleanser
	Baby lotion
	2 to 3 hooded towels that let you swaddle baby post-bath
	Crib
	Changing table with pad (you can also covert an existing dresser by topping with a pad)
	Rocking chair
	ExerSaucer. You won't use it for a few months, but once your baby hits 4 or 5 months, it will blow his little mind.
	Swing or bouncy seat. The movement makes almost all babies very, very sleepy.
	Activity mat (also called the baby gym)
	Mobile for the crib: Think music, lights and movement. We like ones you can turn off remotely.
	Mobile for the changing table: Distract your baby from the fact that his bum is cold.
	Crib bumper
	2 to 3 fitted crib sheets
	2 waterproof mattress pads
	2 or 3 changing pad covers
	A rear-facing infant car seat with base. If you have two cars, you'll need a second base.
	Baby carrier and/or sling
	Stroller: Baby won't sit up for a few months, so you'll need a Snap 'n Go, a travel system or a model in which baby can fully recline.
	A "take-me-home" outfit. Look for a set that's cute for photos, but practical (something warm for winter or light for summer).
	6 to 8 onesies, half short sleeve and half long sleeve. Choose kimono styles that don't pull over baby's head to cut down on screams.
	5 pairs of pants
	6 to 8 sleepers (aka coveralls) with built-in footies, or rompers if it's spring or summer
	5 to 6 sleeping gowns, which snap5 to 6 sleeping gowns, which snap, zip, or cinch closed at the bottom, making late-night diaper changes a breeze.
	At least 3 sleeping gowns should have built-in mittens to cover fast-growing baby fingernails and avoid scratches on smooth baby skin.
	1 to 3 sweater cardigans or zip hoodies, depending on the season
	1 snowsuit or winter bunting (for winter babies)
	1 to 2 pairs of mittens if they aren't included in the snowsuit (for winter babies)
	8 pairs of booties or socks
	4 to 6 hats, including at least one sun hat
	4 to 6 receiving blankets. One should be soft and thick enough to be a blankie contender; two should be thin enough for your diaper bag.
	4 to 6 bibs. At least two should be waterproof. Once baby starts solids, you'll need something you can just hose off.
	Velcro swaddle. This crucial miracle item may be the key to peace in your household.
	Sleep sac, for when baby outgrows the swaddle or sleep gowns, but is still too young for a blanket in the crib. All these times I have been thinking of what to buy and what will i need for my up coming baby but then today I received an email from parents.com and I got all these tips from them as an interactive checklist. It is awesome. Somehow I have an idea now on what to buy because my due is up and coming, in fact I can't wait anymore that will be on Feb 27, 2010 but some people told me that their experiences with their first baby that sometimes it passed the due date, and that sometimes it could be earlier or a week or two delayed...Hmmm...well, I guess I will have to find out with mine. hope it won't pass my due date it is very uncomfortable anymore. And these are my guide on what else I need to buy soon.