Tonight, i just couldn't bring myself to bed and sleep, well, maybe because I had a great long 3 hour nap today. Hubby was at home and he let me slept for 3 long hours in fact I could still sleep more if I wanted to, and it didn't bother him at all. He took care of our little Luke. And, again, right now, I am just browsing at or little Lukee's photos and it all made me smile and happiness in my inner soul...I must admit, there are times I felt like I am so bored and I felt like my life has ended since I have now babies. But, whenever, I realized and looked into my son's face and eyes and listen to his mumbling, giggles and little laughs I just couldn't help but laugh and it never fails to make me feel better.
I couldn't believe why babies grow so fast. Fast enough that we could never ever imagine??? Now, our little Lukee is no longer a baby but a toddler and knows a lot of things around him. I just can't help but feel a little bit sad whenever, I think that maybe I wasn't so good to my baby. Because, sometimes I shouted at him and perhaps even I wouldn't like to, I still would in days to come.
I am not a perfect mom, in fact I have so many flaws, but, all I know is I love my baby, and in a few more weeks i will be giving birth to my second child, and we will be naming him Colt. But, our Lukee will always be our little boy who made us laugh and is giving us so much happiness. A different kind of happiness that only moms could understand.
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